I'm not thinking much. What is done is done. I'm used to following instructions. I like following instructions. Don't ask me to jump steps, don't expect me to be creative, I'll be lost. I'm programmed that way. What I chose may be hard, but I won't back off. I may be in my lows these years, but I'm crawling. It may be slow, but I'll reach there some day. And I'll be able to smile and be proud again. :)