Small discovery

My best friend noticed some changes in me. She can't tell what it was but it was something good. Well, I guess that's something positive for the first time for this whole period. Did I finally get hold of my life? Did I manage to find the balance? The answer is no. I learned my lesson. You won't see things coming. When you feel like you had it all, bad things happen. It might sound pessimistic but for now I think the only thing that's safe to stick with is minding your own business first before you meddle with others. Settle those predictable ones so I'll have time for the unpredictable ones.

These days I find it effective to defy frustration with a smile. At least I feel better. I was too overwhelmed by the anger and I forgot how I used to be. I fear that one day my loved ones no longer recognized me. I need to manage my emotions. It was good to let it out sometimes, but I got carried away and was constantly stuck in it. I felt defeated by the changes that happened around me but things really do get better because people grow and get stronger. Instead of being defeated, I look forward to the day where I overcome it and learn from it. 

Surprisingly, I might starting to like changes.